Nothing Found

It seems we can’t find what you’re looking for. Perhaps searching can help.

Search for:

through the viewfinder of mental health

Instagram

Reason no.12491389143824915 to stay alive/keep trying/keep fighting/telling my brain to stfu. My entire world in one perfect package ❤️ I love you. . #mentalhealth #motherdaughter #mother #motherhood #daughter #parenting #bipolar #bpd #cptsd #csa #survıvor #mentalhealthdiary #realrecovery #recovery #mentalhealthwarrior #SuicidePrevention #suicide #mentalhealthwarrior #fighting #recovery

This is the face of someone who has come to several realisations over the past week. That she'll never work again. At least not in the capacity she was used to. That she's simply not cut out for life as the majority of the world know it. That no matter how hard things might be financially it would literally be the end of her life if she tries to return to her old life. That person is long gone. . Time has caught up with me. My mental health illnesses are written for the world to see when you look at my CV. One change after another, unable to hold down a job, stability eluding me at every turn. Forcing myself to be something I wasn't until it was too late and my fragile house of cards shattered around me in the most spectacularly destructive fashion. . And now? Now I'm 40. Old. I have people looking at my CV with suspicion. Unwilling to give me a chance. I can't cope with the wait to hear if I've got a job after interview. The sheer effort of putting myself out there only to be rejected leaves me suicidal. I personally think it's a shitty thing, where they keep you waiting until they've appointed someone else. I pour my heart and soul into each application and interview. I can't cope with the waiting, with being told sorry, you're simply not good enough or worth it for us to let you know. If you don't want me, just tell me. Don't drag it out. Hope crushed. . Perhaps even worse is the assessment process for disability benefits, to be told you seem to have improved and with treatment it will be fine. Doctors who don't understand the first thing about my conditions making inaccurate judgements on my health. Jumping through hoops, unable to actually take steps such as studying to get out of the cycle of poverty and debt to try and return to work. . I sit here, shocks going up my body and across my stomach. A tension in my chest which won't subside, endless voices repeating my failures, screaming no one cares. Take the drugs, they say. I stay alive because my daughter needs me. One day I might be able to make it stop, when she's grown. Right now, it's just survival till tomorrow #mentalhealth #mentalhealthdiary #bipolar #bpd #cptsd #suicide #realrecovery

Early dinner with my girl at Hotel NY. This spectacular sunset and the perfect afternoon with my clever and funny and adorable daughter reminded me why I fight to be in this world #sky #skyporn #skylovers #clouds #sunsetporn #sunset #mother #motherdaughter #motherhood #mentalhealth #mentalillness #BPD #cptsd #bipolar #PTSD #beautiful

My adorable little gaming ninja ❤️💜💙 . One of those days I feel like I get parenting right. I am so glad my girl likes gaming as much as her parents do 😍 I want her to grow up unfettered from the rubbish and stigma I had as a girl who loved gaming but was always told it was a boy's thing. So glad that's no longer the case. Thank you Sony from two of your loyal fans! . #sony #playstation #Playstation4 #ps4 #child #daughter #parenting #mother #motherdaughter #motherhood #gaming #gamergirl

Along with my breakfast are my running gloves, my headset and my stopwatch. Because yep I went running again today for the first time in months! It was freezing, windy and hailing and I loved every second of the half hour I was out for. Knees are a bit sore but nothing more than the usual aches and pains. . I have to run at the moment. I don't have the money to get to Bikram courtesy of a mystery bill from the government which we have no idea what for, and I have to do something to mitigate the anxiety and paranoia. So running it is, and it may not be the most sensible strategy with a dodgy knee and ankle but I can't sit around with my brain congealing and putting weight on again because I'm not exercising. For my girl, I have to try. Strangely enough I love running in winter the best. It's so cold and blowy and I never overheat. Here's hoping I can reboot and run and do yoga when I can afford it once more! #mentalhealth #mentalhealthdiary #mentalhealthrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #weightloss #recovery #realrecovery #mentalhealth #running #run #selfcare #healing #survivor #bipolar #bpd #cptsd #csa #mother #mum

On our way to Schipol to visit the UK. Spectacular sunrise from the road #sun #sunrise #sunriseporn #skyporn #sky #skylovers

Follow Blog via Email

Enter your email address to follow this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email.

Follow Photography Therapy on WordPress.com

Cont

3999 Mission Boulevard,
San Diego CA 92109

1-202-555-1212

Lunch: 11am - 2pm
Dinner: M-Th 5pm - 11pm, Fri-Sat:5pm - 1am